Happy, procrastination and doom

I am 29 days out for the Disney trip. I have to get back on track! I keep putting it off. Typical since I am in the deception phase...I am allowing "Ellen" to procrastinate. I need to kick Ellen in the butt and get moving towards my goals. My mindset is almost there. Off topic, 9/11 is coming up fast. I would be lying if I said I wasn't freaked out about it. I just feel like I don't want to be at work that day. Of course, I have no choice. I am just concerned. I hope everything goes well and that my DH and I go home safe, which is my hope for every day. I just get edgy as the date comes closer. I apologize in advance for that.