remember me?

Well, it has been a while! Lets recap what I haven't written about...September 11th came and went, I joined Origami Owl, ran the Richmond Color Run and there was mass shooting at the Navy Yard. That is a lot going on, not to mention the regular day to day stuff that has been happening. I won't really get into any of the other stuff and I will just focus on today. I have been trying to do that more often than not. It seems to keep the peace a bit more with everyone. Live for today. Indeed. Unfortunately, I am currently living for the future. At least, this week. I am going on vacation and I cannot wait. I am, however trying to focus on this week a little bit. I need to get to the gym every day I work. I have to stay on track, eat clean and keep my toxic friendship under control. I am going to try to play the way the toxic friend claims they want it. No texting or calling - absolutely no problem on my end. I can do it. Especially since they do not think I can. The trip next week is something I have been looking forward to for months. I just wish the weather was going to be a little bit warmer. 65 is a bit chilly for me. I guess I will just adjust my packing! Unfortunately that also means adjusting our plans a bit. At least we will be on vacation!

Not worth my time and effort

Yesterday was interesting. I have a friend who I have been friends with for about nine years now, we used to work out together and talk to each other daily. I pissed him off about a month ago. Too long and boring of a story to say how that all went down. I might have already written about it - who knows. Anyway, I decided enough was enough. I blocked his vehicle in his parking space with my work vehicle so he would have to say something to me. That went a lot worse than I had imagined it. I figured he would hang his head and let out a big sigh like he has in the past. Not so much. He not only did he dismiss me, he didn't have much to say except that he didn't do anything. Whatever. Does it need to come to that? I literally have two good guy friends that aren't speaking to me and they are both that juvenile that they have to point fingers. That blows my mind. Anyway, I vented on FB about it - not my proudest moment and ironically the wife of the other former friend "liked" that post. LOL I assume she thought I was talking about her husband...I wasn't. I'm sure with me not being considered a friend of these two guys, their wives will be happier which is a good thing. Anyone who doesn't want to talk to me, shouldn't! I don't have time to beg for someone to be my friend or take pity on me. Don't do me any favors! I attempted to be the bigger person on both accounts and it backfired in my face. White flag...I'm done with both of these guys! Have a nice life.

Labor Day

I have to be totally honest. I am actually glad the end of the summer is here. I had a shit summer. I had plans to go to the beach a lot, etc and that just didn't happen. I had a lot of fun, don't get me wrong, just didn't get to the shore as much as I had anticipated. I am trying to figure out if I am going to go train Rocky in a couple of weeks. It would be good money, the dog is a rock star and I can see a few friends to boot. I am just not sure I want to be sitting around the next morning waiting for traffic to die down. I hate that. Who knows. I could use the money since the CA trip is fast approaching. Speaking of the CA trip...I am so excited! I totally need to get away again. I am excited to see all the places I remember so fondly from childhood. It will be awesome if I get to see everyone I plan to while out there. Unfortunately I think it will be too cold to SUP while we are in Tahoe so I have to find a plan B. I was hoping my toxic ex-friend was going to text or call. How codependant is that?! They won't...I already know. They are one of those people that if you just fell off the face of the Earth, they wouldn't notice. You are insignificant to them. Bummer. Oh well. The sooner I accept that, the better things will be. I am excited that I am only working three days this week. That will be tough enough. I have a concert to go to on Friday. I plan to hit the gym T-Th so that will be great. I cannot wait to tell the trainers that I have lost five pounds. I am very happy about that. Back on track!!! ;)

day 6 - written on Wednesday, had trouble publishing

So, I am back! Today was day six of my workouts. I have been on my clean eating spree since the 20th and have lost a few lbs which is motivating. I have found a couple of new things to eat that are not boring me yet so that is a plus. I hope I keep it up without changing what I am doing too much since it is working. I have been back to my gallon a day (at least) of water too so that helps.
Work is going well so far this week. I have been busy but it hasn’t been terrible. Of course it is my Tuesday today so who knows. I think I might give Aldo a bath this week. I had planned on doing it today but it is raining so there is no point in that. I am going to go give him some play time in a few minutes. Poor little fella, he has been patient with me today, so he deserves some fun time.

Summer is winding down...

The weekend is much less hectic as originally planned.  My DH conducted a couple of special Pentagon tours on Saturday evening.  We went to dinner in Richmond then to Shyndigz for dessert.  It was nice.  This morning I actually slept in which is amazing.  We are supposed to go to the river today for the Wake ad Sun Fest but I am not sure we are getting moving any time soon.  I need to do some box jumps and burpees today and maybe some TRX too.  So far today, I have only been sitting on my laptop looking at Pinterest.  LOL.  I am trying to figure out what to cover my sear turtle tattoo on my back that I have had laser tattoo removal on.  I believe it is light enough to cover it now...at least, I hope it is.  I have been pinning ideas this morning and I even have my BFF looking lol.
Anyway, I have had a run in with my old toxic friends again which seemed terrible but I have realized they are blessings in disguise.  The old toxic friend deleted me from FB again.  That makes me laugh because we all know that FB isn't real life.  I messaged her and just wrote deleted again?  She replied it was time so I wished her well in her life and that is done.  For good.  The other toxic friend is the one I have written about before.  They lost their mind the other day when we were talking so I told them I was sick of the friendship rules they had...can only talk on their work days, no talking or texting when they are off.  Thats crap.  They have never been there for me yet I am alway there for them.  Pretty one sided.  They said oh yes...you are always the victim.  I'm not a victim, I just put myself in bad places that result in me getting used or stepped on.  Fuck that.  Yesterday they called me and said they didn't know how to handle me.  I told them they didnt and that was that.  Then they said we can talk at work but that was it.  Later I texted and said to forget talking at work.  It is clear to me they don't want to talk to me and there is no need to fake it at work.  DONE.  I am 100% better off without them.
Things like that make me realize how precious my real friends are and that how lucky I am to have them.