Ok so I am a little late

Well, its Friday and not Wednesday.  At least I finally got on here to blog!  I appreciate you popping by to read this so I will write myself a note so I can remember to blog! 
I have had a good week at work.  I cannot remember the last time I said that.  I am not sure if it is because I just got back from the beach or if it is because things are getting better here.  One of my biggest stresses at work has been delegated to an officer which has freed up a lot of my time during the day.  I have actually gone to the gym three days in a row which is amazing!  My legs and abs are killing me today but I am happy to have to say that.  Of course fitness is huge when it comes to stress reducing.  I need that!
I have also been eating clean this week.  Tomorrow is my scheduled cheat day but I am not entirely convinced I should do it.  I think I need to brush up on the 4 Hour Body since it has been a while since I followed it.  I plan to be as successful as I was the first time, if not more this time around.  I will be taking today off from the gym for recovery but I already received a workout for Saturday from the trainers at work. 
I have been researching stand up paddle boarding (SUP) lessons and rentals in the area and I cannot wait to take another class.  I was hoping to do it this weekend but it doesn't look like I will be able to.  I wanted my cousin to go with me but it is a little expensive for her.  I will rent for a while to make sure I utilize the board before purchasing one.  I plan to purchase one when I reach my goal weight which is approximately 20 lbs away.  I would also love to get one of my dogs to go with me!  We will see about that one, lol. 
I am getting really excited about our trip to California.  I am originally form there and my DH hasn't been to San Francisco and wants to see where I grew up.  We are going to Lake Tahoe while we are out there and that has got me super excited!  I found a cute place to stay right across from the lake and I even found a place to rent paddleboards!  Its just a month away but I cannot wait!
Anyway, I will attempt and not promise that I will blog again this weekend.  Until then...

Case of the Mondays

Just got back from the beach which was fabulous.  Had an opportunity to go train a dog and possibly see friends so I did...unfortunately my old toxic friend is beyond toxic again.  I really need to cut the cord for good.
I am actually writing this to remind myself...  The one sided friendship blows.  I give.  I am there.  I call.  I don't have any of that reciprocated.  I am there when my friend drives home from work to talk to them on the phone.  They never do this for me.  I am always available for texts or calls.  They are not.  They only want to talk or text on work days.  WTF?  What friendships have rules about texting or talking?! 
They make plans and cancel all the time.  Truthfully, I make the plans...they never invite me to do anything, ever.  Ouch.  I feel used.  But why do I continue?  Why do they have that power?  I hope that things will stay good and whamo I get the door slammed in my face and I get blamed for everything.  Its always me.  I do whatever to make them mad.  I try too hard.  DUH.  The sad thing is we used to be close.  Like real friends.  Actually, we might not have been now that I look back.  I just really let them step all over me back then, I guess.  Awful.  So, today I cut the cord so to speak.  They won't care or look back, I know.  That actually hurts my feelings a bit.  I care.  I will miss them, even if they are toxic.  I do know it is better this way.  I know I will be happier in the long run.  They will continue to be miserable as always.  Thanks to the stupid iphone 5, I can't get rid of their number - it deletes but when you go to text anyone with the first letter the same, their name comes up.  AWFUL.  How can I get rid of them if they won't delete?
Yes I have a case of the Mondays.  I didn't until the "friend" was a douche.  I also realize that tomorrow is D day for me. I am D-one with this laziness.  I am back on track with my diet and going to the gym.  I have a month til we vacation in CA and I want to look my best.  I cannot wait.  I will blog more often (yeah right) to stay on track.  Guess I will check in Wednesday?

Vacation in OBX coming to an end

We went to Southern Shores in NC for a few days/nights.  We are lucky enough to be invited to stay with my friends' family.  Well, we went to the beach, did some shopping and we ate.  And ate.
Lisa and I took a stand up paddle boarding class and that was amazing.  I am hooked.  I wish I had $2K I didn't know what to do with so I could buy a board and needed equipment.  Maybe next year.
Today we went shopping which was fun, we went to Manteo and then ate lunch at The Black Pelican.
Everyone had seafood for dinner, so I took a nap.  Unfortunately for me, I didn't eat anything.  Bill and I went out to get snowballs which made his day and then came home to eat something.  I made toaster pastry and then proceeded to drop said pastry on the floor.  AWESOME.  UGH.  Typical.  So...now I am a grump and thinking about just going to bed and hoping I wake in a better mood.  I am not sure what time we are leaving in the morning but I hope we can hit a couple of places I didn't get to go yet.
I'm looking forward to seeing my puppies.  I miss them.
Its such a bummer that I have to work Tuesday.  I am not looking forward to that at all.  Aldo comes home Sunday and I am looking forward to seeing his silly face.
On a more personal note, I am very disappointed in myself.  I have continued my downward spiral and I am not excited to see the scale Sunday.  I have got to stop this insanity.  I have to start eating the way I am supposed to.  I have to get my ass to the gym.  I have made a deal with myself that when I get to my goal weight I will get myself a SUP.  Not once pound earlier.  Enough is enough.  My pants that I was so excited I got into are crazy tight and most likely would be painful to button.  LOL.  Its not funny.  I am really shocked I went back to my lazy ways so easily.  I mean, really?  I have been good and going to the gym regularly for over a year and bam...gone?  WTF?!  What am I doing?!
I hope to find my focus.  I hope to get back on track.  I hope to get back to the gym and get strong again.  I feel lost.  Its like I can't have balance in everything.  If I am balanced in my health, my eating and my workouts I seem to be emotionally unbalanced.  If my regular life is balanced, my health is in the crapper.  I need to find balance in all things.  Time to focus.
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I'm back!

Ok so I totally suck and remembering to come here and blog!  Its not like I really have much to say but I should be better about this!
So...Busch Gardens was a blast!  What a great day!  I cannot wait to go back.
I am still waiting to hear about the TSA process.  It will be a while, I am sure.
Nothing else is really going on.  Work is still not great but it might get better soon.  Furloughs are over at the end of next week so I hope to get back in the gym at least 3 days a week.  After my shift today I am off for a week so I am super happy about that.
While on leave I am going to take a stand up paddle boarding lesson.  That will be amazing.  I hope I like it so I can continue doing it in RVA and maybe add that to my fitness routine.  I also plan to run often while on leave.  I need to get my body in better shape.  I slacked off a lot and it is showing!  I miss my trainers too!
What else is going on?  I went to a great concert the other night...Fastball, Vertical Horizon, Gin Blossoms, Sugar Ray and Smash Mouth.  Flashback to the 90s!  They were great and we had an awesome night!
Anyway, even though I don't have many people checking out this blog, I plan to blog while on vacation so lets see if I can do it!